IC Contact - Duplicity

[understood]

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[understood]

I'm afraid I can't do that. There's a tiger on the loose, and I drowned last month. Perhaps you were jumping to conclusions, but I think it's understandable, considering the circumstances.

[scarrystories]

Ugh, this sucks.

[ 8-( ]

[understood]

Sorry.

[ Slowly, giving Andy time to pull away, Fraser gathers him into his lap. ]

[scarrystories]

[ No, it's fine, he's gonna let this happen. This is probably the less immature option. ]

I don't want to be on edge all the time.

[understood]

That seems like something you can work on.

[ But for now, cuddles. ]

[scarrystories]

I can't be mean to you even when I want to be.

[ This is nice, though, very comforting. ]

[understood]

You could try, if it would make you feel better.

[scarrystories]

It wouldn't, it'd be like kicking a puppy.

[understood]

Is there something else that would make you feel better?

[scarrystories]

I'm fine. I'm glad you're safe.

[understood]

The question stands.

[scarrystories]

I really don't know.

[understood]

[ Fraser leans his head against Andy's, still just holding him. ]

You can tell me if I'm being overbearing. It's just that you seem to think you need to deal with your feelings around me without involving me. And... while you have the perfect right to do so, it's... we live together, we're intimate with each other, and I care for you deeply. So I don't want you to feel that you have to spare me, out of a misplaced sense of duty.

[scarrystories]

[ He's quiet for a while, trying to get his own thoughts organized. ]

I'm not used to having this many feelings.

[understood]

I understand.

[scarrystories]

It'd be nice to have a dial.

[understood]

There's meditation.

[scarrystories]

If I had the head for meditation I wouldn't be neck deep into BDSM.

[understood]

[ He gives a slightly strangled laugh. ]

My mistake.

[scarrystories]

It's really rude of you to laugh at my emotional issues, Ben.

[ He's kidding, and he's back to Ben, so clearly he's feeling better. ]

[understood]

Sorry.

[ He apologises reflexively anyway, but he's smiling. ]

[scarrystories]

It feels like I'm quickly approaching some massive meltdown and I'd really rather not.

[understood]

Tell me what's troubling you.

[ He's not entirely aware that he's phrased it as an order. ]

[scarrystories]

[ Andy is very aware it was phrased as an order, and also very aware of his own urge to obey it. ]

On what level? Because I have many layers of troubles.

[understood]

Well, what do you feel is leading up to a meltdown?