IC Contact - Duplicity

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[scarrystories]

It's not. You're still figuring out how this fits with who you are— you're running before you're walking, hiccups are normal.

[understood]

...

[ After deep thought... ]

I think I may feel— uncomfortable.

[ He's not sure, though. ]

[scarrystories]

Okay. Let's see if we can narrow it down, we know I triggered it, but why did it bug you?

[ Andy has an idea, but he'd like Fraser to get there on his own. ]

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I'd rather not say.

[scarrystories]

Even if I promise not to judge?

[understood]

I know that you won't.

[scarrystories]

I don't think every insecurity needs to be voiced, but it does help on occasion.

[understood]

It's not an insecurity, exactly.

[scarrystories]

What is it?

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Well, you see, it's just a bit crude, Andy.

[scarrystories]

... you could write it down for me. If you wanted.

[understood]

It's just that I realized that perhaps there's no courteous way to... do what I was about to do.

[scarrystories]

Ah, yeah, I figured. I don't see how that's a bad thing, though.

[understood]

I don't think it is, exactly, but it... took me out of things, when I thought about it.

[scarrystories]

I think maybe there was some... ah, cognitive dissonance there. A lot changed for you very fast, and your self-image hasn't quite caught up.

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I'm not really clear on what you mean by that.

[scarrystories]

You're not used to thinking about yourself as someone who has kinky sex with other men.

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[ Okay yes thanks he's dying again, point proven. ]

You have a point.

[scarrystories]

[ Andy rubs his back. ]

Hey, hey. It's all right, this is something you can defeat with logic. Do you think there's anything wrong with it?

[understood]

No...

[scarrystories]

Do you enjoy it? Because I do, very much.

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[ He nods mutely :x ]

[scarrystories]

And it's built on mutual respect, right? We have safeguards so we stop if either of us is no longer enjoying it. So there's nothing rude about it.

[understood]

No, but...

[ He has absolutely no idea how to articulate what he's feeling. ]

[scarrystories]

Do you want a minute or should I try to guess?