IC Contact - Duplicity

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[scarrystories]

It's fine, I don't think I will.

[understood]

I'm glad to hear that, Andy.

[ He kisses him again. ]

[scarrystories]

[ Oh good, this is nice. ]

[understood]

[ After a few moments of that, Fraser shudders and wraps himself around Andy properly, nuzzling at his neck. ]

[scarrystories]

[ Andy hugs him back, still being tentative. ]

Better?

[understood]

Yes. I'm fine.

[scarrystories]

[ Andy runs his fingers through the back of Fraser's hair. ]

Wanna tell me what you're thinking?

[understood]

It was silly to be so thrown.

[scarrystories]

It's not. You're still figuring out how this fits with who you are— you're running before you're walking, hiccups are normal.

[understood]

...

[ After deep thought... ]

I think I may feel— uncomfortable.

[ He's not sure, though. ]

[scarrystories]

Okay. Let's see if we can narrow it down, we know I triggered it, but why did it bug you?

[ Andy has an idea, but he'd like Fraser to get there on his own. ]

[understood]

...

I'd rather not say.

[scarrystories]

Even if I promise not to judge?

[understood]

I know that you won't.

[scarrystories]

I don't think every insecurity needs to be voiced, but it does help on occasion.

[understood]

It's not an insecurity, exactly.

[scarrystories]

What is it?

[understood]

Well, you see, it's just a bit crude, Andy.

[scarrystories]

... you could write it down for me. If you wanted.

[understood]

It's just that I realized that perhaps there's no courteous way to... do what I was about to do.

[scarrystories]

Ah, yeah, I figured. I don't see how that's a bad thing, though.

[understood]

I don't think it is, exactly, but it... took me out of things, when I thought about it.

[scarrystories]

I think maybe there was some... ah, cognitive dissonance there. A lot changed for you very fast, and your self-image hasn't quite caught up.

[understood]

I'm not really clear on what you mean by that.

[scarrystories]

You're not used to thinking about yourself as someone who has kinky sex with other men.