IC Contact - Duplicity

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[understood]

No, but...

[ He has absolutely no idea how to articulate what he's feeling. ]

[scarrystories]

Do you want a minute or should I try to guess?

[understood]

Must we discuss this?

[scarrystories]

I think it'd be good, yeah. You're very... self-contained. If we let these kind of thing fester it'll become a bigger think in the long run.

[understood]

I don't think it's festering.

[scarrystories]

Ah... well, we don't have to talk about it, if you don't want to. But I know you're still getting drops.

I never did tell you about subspace, did I?

[understood]

No, I forgot to ask. Sorry.

[scarrystories]

It's fine. Subspace is a kind of natural high people sometimes go into during a scene, a bit trance-like.

[ He probably doesn't need to explain the science behind it, Ben would know how endorphins and so forth could get someone there. ]

I don't... have much experience with it. But I've felt like I'm teetering close with you and I don't want you to freak out if it does happen.

[understood]

I don't think that would freak me out. I have hypnotized you, after all.

[scarrystories]

People can go non-verbal and not be entirely aware of their own limits.

[ He's a little embarrassed talking about it. ]

[understood]

[ Fraser kisses him, immediately less awkward now that he's focusing on Andy again. ]

If we play with knives again, should we set some specific limits ahead of time, then?

[scarrystories]

[ It's his turn to be a little in his head, but he kisses Ben back easily. ]

Mmh. Maybe.

[understood]

Let's do that, and see how it affects things.

[scarrystories]

... I'm not sure of what new limits I'd set? I trust you.

[understood]

Well... maybe I should come up with a plan, and tell it to you ahead of time.

[scarrystories]

Mmh.

[ He's still thoughtful about it. ]

[understood]

[ Fraser elbows him gently. ]

I'll talk about what I was thinking of you tell me what you're thinking.

[scarrystories]

[ Andy lets his head drop against Ben's shoulder. ]

Give me a minute to put my thoughts in order.

[understood]

[ That's fine with Fraser. He takes Andy's hand and threads their fingers together, being quiet. ]

[scarrystories]

[ He feels ridiculous. Which is a sign he should just talk about it. ]

It is a bigger deal for me than it is for you, that you can just— get me there.

[understood]

You mentioned that you don't have a lot of experience with it.

[scarrystories]

I don't trust easily.

[understood]

You did mention that it freaks you out.

[scarrystories]

I might be having some cognitive dissonance too. I think I should be more alarmed than I am, and it keeps not happening, so I end up feeling weird and confused.

[understood]

I can understand that. You trust me, but you don't entirely trust your trust in me.