IC Contact - Duplicity

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[understood]

And, as I imagine you're aware, they all contained, ah, well... rather explicit scenarios.

[scarrystories]

Yes, dear. I know your character had sex with his character in the book.

[understood]

Right. Yes. Well.

... as it happens, my character in the book was a scientist whose spaceship crashed on an alien planet, and Huaisang was cast in the role of another sapient species, who captured the scientist, for... questionable purposes.

[scarrystories]

[ Finally he has a better idea of where this is going. ]

Okay, so is the problem the non-consensual aspect of the sex, or that it likely involved weird tentacles?

[understood]

More the former. It wasn't—I certainly don't blame him in the least. And, while it was a disturbing experience, I don't feel unduly upset by it. It's just that we haven't really discussed it.

[scarrystories]

Ben, I think this needs to be a longer conversation than you want it to be.

[understood]

[ Ben is ladling soup into containers for storage. ]

I don't see why.

[scarrystories]

[ Andy takes his hand. ]

That can wait. Come on.

[understood]

Andy...?

[ He puts down the ladle, at least, not resisting. ]

[scarrystories]

I know you don't think you're upset, but I'd like to hear what happened in the story.

[ Andy's taking him to the living room so they can sit down and actually look at each other. ]

[understood]

It's a little embarrassing, Andy... and it doesn't seem fair to tell you all the details when I haven't asked him if he'd like to keep it private...

[ But that doesn't mean he has a problem holding Andy's hand and sitting on the couch with him. ]

cw: rape mention

[scarrystories]

I don't need to know what he did, just how you felt.

[ Andy wants to know if it was rape— he did experience one of those books and knows how real it felt. ]

[understood]

Even though I wasn't myself, in many senses?

[ It wasn't really how he felt, it was how Third Science Officer Fraser felt. ]

[scarrystories]

Do the memories not feel yours?

[ Andy's do, but his experiences are probably not universal. ]

[understood]

[ Do they...? He takes a moment to consider that, quietly. ]

It's an interesting question. I suppose they do, but... in the sense that I sometimes remember a vivid dream. I remember the experience, and that it made sense internally at the time, but looking back, it's easy to understand that it wasn't reality.

[scarrystories]

Oh, that's good.

[ It means emotional detachment will be easier. ]

... so, do you wanna hang out with Huasiang because you enjoyed the dream or because you didn't?

[understood]

I want to spend time with him because I enjoy his company. And now that you're getting to know each other as well... I just think it would be nice. It has nothing to do with the book. It's just that I'm worried it might—colour things.

[scarrystories]

So you've talked since?

[understood]

No, but we've spent a good deal of time together. I mean... before that. We'd discussed the possibility of— and the risks— I mean, not in any great detail, and we never, or rather, I never... committed. But.

[scarrystories]

Wait, so you're telling me you have a close friend you'd never told me about?

[ Even though he can't help sounding cranky, Andy's also visibly relieved. He was worried Ben had just met him, but if they're close then this whole thing is less of an issue. ]

[understood]

I suppose so.

Sorry.

... I don't know that he considers me a close friend, honestly. But he's been very kind.

[scarrystories]

Are we bad at talking to each other about what's going on with us?

[understood]

No, I don't think so. Are we? Do you think so...? We're talking right now...

[ He knows sometimes he's hurt Andy's feelings in the past by not disclosing things in a timely fashion, though, so now he's concerned. ]

I'm sorry if I— well. I know I'm not always as communicative as you'd prefer. But I honestly wasn't trying to keep anything from you, and particularly in the case of my friendship with Huaisang, there were circumstances... as you know, I did drown shortly after the first time I met, and then by the time I remembered—well, anything, it no longer seemed germane.

I'm sure I don't know about all your friends, either. And I don't think there's anything wrong with that.

[scarrystories]

No, no, I wasn't putting it on you. I haven't had a boyfriend before, so I don't know what's... healthy or expected or the average experience.

[understood]

As you know, nor do I. But... I think we're doing alright.